Love In You

There was a time when I used to believe that in order to be happy I had to love others and they had to love me in return. I believed that if their love was unrequited then I was unworthy of any kind of love and therefore I was unhappy. I was unhappy for a very long time because I wasn’t taught what love was and I did not have the best examples in that department. It was not until I was 17 and my heart and all my efforts to make someone feel loved were shattered. I felt completely broken and lost as if I had wasted years of my life trying to get the acceptance and love of others when all I had to do was look into the mirror. If only I had known earlier that the acceptance and love I needed was that of my own. Giving someone that much control of your mental state and emotions, by making your happiness dependent upon their presence and actions, is never the best option. People are fluid meaning they aren’t permanent and are always growing and outgrowing things and others. If you allow your happiness to be controlled by that of another, you will never genuinely be happy because when they leave, they will leave with that part of you and you will feel broken and lost. Truth is they never had any part of you to begin with, you are whole all on your own and it is when you finally realise this, you will see how worthy you are and how worthy you have always been. It took me being treated as unworthy of one’s love to realise that the only person that could make me feel respected and adored was me. I was never unworthy of love, I was just seeking it in the wrong places. I came to the realisation that I was the only constant in my life, and if I accepted and loved myself I would be unstoppable. Since then I have never been happier and more at peace with myself and those around me. Your happiness lies within you and no one else. You can’t expect to find yourself in someone else because you won’t. Only you know your desires and needs, and only you can bring yourself the peace and ultimate happiness you were meant to have, you just have to believe in yourself. You are love, find the love you deserve within.