Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting love that was less than what I deserved. I forgive myself for hurting all the people I have hurt. I forgive myself for thinking and speaking negative thoughts. I forgive myself for being selfish and ungrateful. I forgive myself for disliking others and treating anyone as less than they deserve to be treated. I forgive me for anything that might have been harmful in anyway to me or anyone around me. Forgiveness is a you thing which frees you, it almost has little to nothing to do with the other person. Forgiveness allows you to become liberated and in touch with your inner peace. I have been wronged by copious amounts of people and I have also wronged others. Forgiveness isn’t something done to please someone else. The ability to forgive requires great strength especially if the person you are trying to forgive is not and never will be sorry. I can’t imagine living a life in which all I had was hate in my heart towards something and someone that was beyond my control. The actions of others in no way reflects on you and your character. I repressed a lot of anger and sadness as a child and it wasn’t until I was forced to face my trauma that i realised the root of my pain. I had to forgive myself first before i could ever forgive another. I forgave myself for thinking I was the cause of my pain and anger. I forgave myself for allowing my pain and internal suffering to manifest into my loved ones’ lives. I forgave myself for allowing this hurt to control me and upon forgiving myself I learned how to forgive others. I learned how to forgive others not only for their peace of mind but to restore my love and inner peace. I forgave others because I remembered how I once needed the forgiveness from those whom I had hurt. I forgave others because as flawed as we all are, we are all we have. Forgiveness brought me to a place of happiness. Forgiving, especially those who will never be sorry, gave me the strength I needed to pull my self out of my mental rut. I am a better person for it and my ability to love has grown. Forgive for you, not anyone else. To love is to forgive and to forgive is to be free of all burden of hate, resentment, and suffering.